I put my big girl undies on and I went in search of the answers to “Why me?” According to my manager these were some of the reasons I was selected to be included as part of the layoff:
• I was the perceived ring leader of a clique and this was an opportunity to break it a part.
• It was perceived that I came and went as I pleased.
• It was perceived that I did not effectively train a coordinator (1 out of 12)
• I didn’t follow established processes.
• Three separate issues were documented affecting flight preparation.
• I was not able to travel freely.
• It was perceived that I did not play well with others, in my department, outside of my clique. But I was awesome to the customer.
• It was perceived that I showed favoritism when providing work related services and only provided those services to those in my clique.
• I didn’t fit into Management’s “vision” of a Dream Team.
I couldn’t decide if I wanted to include the above but in the end I thought it was necessary. To remind me where I came from and remember where I’m going. There is no point in refuting these perceptions, I am adult enough to admit there is partial truth to some and bottom line…people see what they want to see both good or bad.
On August 16th I interviewed with a company in front of 5 different people and nailed it.
On August 23rd I came back for a familiarization tour and was told “informally” that I was the one they wanted for the job.
On August 29th I was formally offered a Technical Site Office Document Specialist position with Bayer Material Science.
On September 19th – five weeks from the end of one career I began another.
I leave you with two emails. The first email is one I sent to my colleagues, managers, flight directors, crew members, and people that have generally influenced me during my tenure working for the Human Spaceflight Program. The final email is from my husband, sent to me on my last day of work at NASA.
Subject: Thank You!
The sun has set on my time occupying this seat in DO3…I would like to thank everyone for all of the wonderful experiences I have enjoyed over the past 11 years working in the Human Spaceflight Program. I appreciate the opportunities I have been given with United Space Alliance and would like to thank each of you for the guidance, support, and friendship you have shown me over the years. I will take the MANY…MANY…many…amazing memories and experiences with me as I begin a new chapter.
For those that wish to keep in contact, I can be reached by email at email@example.com or by cell at 281-XXX-XXXX.
Sincerely and Best Regards,
Subject: When one door closes…
…another one opens.
You have many doors in front of you, and I am confident that the one you choose to open will prove to be a terrifically rewarding one for you. You have so much to offer and any organization should be thrilled to have you and your skill set. What I hope for you is that you find a challenging, stimulating situation that reignites the fire you show in your work when you are passionately invested. It’s the kind of passion that is rare nowadays and there is an employer out there who’s going to think “How was this one still available?”
If it’s not already understood, I’m here for you in whatever capacity you need me to be. I have no concerns…neither should you. The next chapter will be on your terms. And there’s nothing more filled with possibilities than that.
There is a lyric from a song (“Headful of Doubt”) I really like that is eerily appropriate…
When nothing is owed or deserved or expected
And your life doesn’t change by the man that’s elected
If you’re loved by someone, you’re never rejected
Decide what to be and go be it.
I have no doubt you’re going to find something that will make you realize that this was the best thing that could have ever happened to you. Until then, your Foiled Again! Chocolate Coins employee number is 002. Sorry…001 was already taken. By Roz from Monster’s Inc.
Decide what to be and go be it.
How I love that man of mine and can you tell music has a huge influence on our relationship.
I have taken away so much from this experience…compassion, humility, trust.
I am one of the lucky ones my story had a happy ending and there isn’t a minute of the day that goes by that I am not thankful.
I am a better person and the opportunity is infinite!
Thanks for sticking with me…I plan on posting more frequently. I miss this.
Wishing everyone safe and happy holidays.